I originally wrote this piece two years ago and stumbled upon it recently. It was a message I needed to hear again. Though my struggle with connecting with God lately is real and raw – the reminder to find a deeper state of resting is ringing true in my heart. So today I share again for us all.
What do you find yourself doing in the pauses of life?
The moments where there’s nothing on the calendar, a cancelled meeting, or perhaps a quiet hour alone…do you rest? Read? Cross off a few things on your to-do list? Turn on the tv?
Not long ago, I had a couple days that were more full than usual with conversations and time with friends. My spirit was feeling lifted and thankful for those sweet moments. It was a cherished respite from the alone time that normally fills my days – something that often is a necessity due to how miserable this disease can make me feel.
I purposefully left the rest of the week open, knowing my body would need the rest and recovery time. Back when I was working, on-the-go and we were having company most weeks, I think I would have embraced the moments as time slots. Space to fill with a few things I just “had to get done.”
I carried so much stress then and it was a struggle listening to my body (and my husband) telling me I needed to rest. It was easy to feel like my tendency to stay busy was justified. But I remember the consequences well.
In the many moments of resting and alone time I have, there are many areas of my life and character that feel strained by my physical limitations.
And this whole idea of “resting well” has been heavily on my mind and heart.
I can be forced to rest on the couch due to my health most days, but there’s an even deeper state of resting I think God may want to cultivate in my soul.
Our hearts and minds can be just as on-the-go as our bodies, if not more so. I can find my heart dwelling for too long on the things I can’t change and want to. The people I care for, and all of the things I think I need to do, but physically can’t.
I can busily occupy my thought space with worry, frustration and what ifs. But I know there is freedom when I can find rest and let go of the things I struggle so hard to hold on to.
While I do believe there is good found in being productive and having a schedule (major planner here), there is also so much good in unplugging and carving out quiet time for our soul, mind and bodies to rest.
To refocus on those things we value most. Those that truly are the most important. Quality time with loved ones, quiet time connecting with God, loving others well, rest for the soul, and taking care of my health need to be at the top of my list.
Above the rest of the noise that can constantly invade my thoughts, my dreams, my state of being.
So today, in the busy hum of whatever our day holds, I pray we can carve out even a moment’s pause of rest. An opportunity to recognize a piece of beauty in the day and breathe a sigh of relief as we let go of whatever it is we’re holding onto so tightly.
This day is precious. We are here for a purpose. We’re loved.
May we consciously choose to live in the comforting, peace-giving shadow of our Father, for however long we can muscle our restless hearts into sitting still in that place.
Psalm 91:1 – those who live in the shelter of the Most High will find rest in the shadow of the Almighty.